face it. (:

2009-11-30T12:32:00.004+08:00

this blog is as good as though its dead.
4 more days to end of half mock exam. In fact, i don't even have to feel so stress since it doesn't affect my UOL result.

oh nono. i shouldn't have such mentality about it

Nonetheless, it did motivate me to study and not laze around thinking that i still have 5 month plus to the main exam.

Its all about counting down. 12 days to batam cable ski trip, 14 days to Korea i hope i don't freeze there and 22 days to KL to climb :) :) how can i not get excited all these trips? :)

Overall, life has been good and i'm enjoying the current moment. I'm hoping for the best that would happen to me.

2009-11-09T11:22:00.003+08:00

I'm starting to wonder if i made the right choice to continue my studies. Somehow, i knew that i still want to but i just can't bring myself to be the right mood to study day and night like how i use to do it back in poly days. At times, i even feel like dropping out from sch. :(

one day,

kx: mum, i feel like dropping out from school
*my mum stare at me*
mum: who ask you to climb everyday?
kx: i always studied before i go climb or after i climb!?
mum: you always think of climbing when you are studying, how are you suppose to concentrate?

okays, what she said was true to a certain extent. my brain is definitely else where when i'm studying. But, if i don't climb and just study, i will probably end up in the IMH.

:(

2009-10-03T01:07:00.002+08:00

i think my feet have teeth, they always bite the base of my rock shoe.
holey holey on my conflicttttt. ):

2009-08-24T12:38:00.003+08:00

Photos explain what i have been doing recently.(:

1. meet ups (Primary school, Secondary School,Poly friends)
2. Climbing @ Dairy farm
3. Climbing trip to KL with random gang which was a great success. :)

peining's comment explains why i'm back here again.

tpn: your blog is dead.

so i'm back to keep it alive. :) oh well, seriously, i have no idea what to blog about so i decided to throw in pictures instead of blogging long stories. Honestly, i'm kind of sick of blogging. Perhaps, i will just happily shut it down one day.

school will be starting tml, not very excited though cause i have no idea whether i have made the right decision to do the degree in SAA rather than SIM. It seems like the whole world is in SIM and enjoying campus life there. hmmmm. okies, no point for me to ponder again. I chose it, i face it. :)

2009-08-04T00:04:00.003+08:00

KL trip was a blast.
the food, the climb, the people. (:
one word: awesome!
the people that went for this KL trip was rather random, but still, we bonded as one and it was a success.

one bad thing about this trip is that yixiang lost his phone. ):
and it happened on the day when we were leaving KL.
i hope the hostel mgt will find his hp within the hostel man!

i came back to Singapore and looking forward to my tioman trip,
but it was cancelled.
damn. -.-

2009-07-30T21:43:00.001+08:00

hiatus! (:
off to KL with the random group of people tml.
nonetheless, it's definitely going to be fun.
looking forward to the next 4days 3 nights! :D

2009-07-26T00:45:00.002+08:00

start to feel nothing.
i have no idea what's happening around me.
probably, i'm just choosing to ignore everything?
yes. i guess so.

2009-07-18T03:05:00.003+08:00

i'm starting to love work. (:
meeting new people everytime i take a trip.
cool.
and to realize that this world is actually very small

awesome! :)

2009-07-13T15:37:00.005+08:00

me need a runaway.

planning to go get weekend runaway with my mum and cousin.
planning to go to tioman/bintan/genting with seth, kristin and tjk. :D :D :D
planning to go HK with my family at the end of year. (:

eggcited.
i hope it's not just planning. hahas.

and lucky tjk is in vietnam now for 3 freaking weeks! ):
and many many friends went into army today. hahas.
take care every birdy.

i'm starting to love econs!

2009-07-04T13:45:00.005+08:00

i'm suppose to be mugging.
but i'm not. instead i'm blogging and it makes me feel like i'm a rotten potato.
i just can't get myself stick to the study table and mug for a few hours. i'm actually studying for like 20 min and resting for 40mins. what an inefficient day.

days at RSH ended. kinda miss the people there. everyone is just too friendly and it was really enjoyable to work there.
nevertheless, working at borderX is fun too. 3 more weeks to econs test.
allez ceekayaxe.

i need to climb
i need to swim
i need to run
but my knee is restricting this activities.
or rather, i'm lazy?

2009-06-24T00:59:00.000+08:00

The lovely people at rockmaster 2009. (:

yet and again.

2009-06-21T23:45:00.003+08:00

okays.
i'm still stuck.
it was a close fight for the intermediate final.
now i knew the importance of ATTEMPTS.
hahas.

whatever it is, i have fun in the finals. (:
i held a few of my best friends!
they were friendlier to me today as compared to yst.

rockmaster sums up the bouldering competition season.
the next one will be boulderactive next year.
probably it's enough of intermediate?
or maybe i should join both again?
what ever. i shall just think about it when the time comes.

for now, it's a one week break from climbing.
let my fingers and lousy right knee rest.
less climbing; more running, swimming and studying.

congrats to all winners! (:

isweet power. (:

2009-06-19T01:19:00.000+08:00

things happen for a reason.
but what if nothing happens?

bumpy bumpy road.

2009-06-17T14:13:00.001+08:00

me is a happy insectosaurus now.
(:
it's a passsssssssss for bridging mathematics!

YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

one more bridging economics to go!

green tuesday.

2009-06-16T10:52:00.007+08:00

oh man. 3 more days before the weekend arrives.
previous weekend started with the horrible maths test which i doubt i'm able to pass. no calculator for maths = disaster? I feel like i'm giving tuition to my primary 2 kid at that moment when i'm doing those workings.

Thinking that maths was a disaster but i was proved wrong yesterday. Cos, economics was way more difficult than mathematics. totally lost. i should really focus and be serious about my studies.

books aside.
Had my 6th intermediate competition on sunday.. yes! it's 6th and i'm still stuck in intermediate. Manage to squeeze my way into final and qualify last. I have no doubt that i will still get last in final. hahas. whatever it is, i'm prepared for the worst and i shall just go there and have fun (no pressure). (:

Oh. i'm thinking whether to join open women on the coming saturday @ Marina Barrage! the experience from pumpfest was a mixture of positive and negative. okays, i shall think about it.
:)

3 more weeks to the end of work contract!

i shouldn't be in...

2009-06-13T01:10:00.003+08:00

SMARTIE FRIEND, it's just for you ):

4 hours ago, i just got to know that my friend will be going back to indonesia in like 9 hours time? ): He's someone i met in year one and definitely a smartie who aid me alot in studies. (someone whose forever complaining that i'm too hardworking.)

It was kind of unexpected when he told me about it and it got me really upset. Then i realised, how i have not cherish him as a friend?

We studied together for exam in year 1, with me supplying him my notes and him cracking his brain to answer those question that i have problems with. In year 2 and year 3, we took the different elective and we were in different class. Thus less studying time together.

Though we seldom keep in contact, but i appreciated that he came to bid me goodbye before he's leaving and somehow, i regretted for not finding out about it earlier so that i can spend more time with this friend before he leaves. He's going off and wouldn't return to Singapore to study or work anymore. Probably the next time when he comes to Singapore, it will be 20 years down the road.

Okays,
it's a fact that he will be going back and no point for me to regret.
Hope he will do well in his family business (:
Take care Gunawan!
you will be missed! :D

2009-06-10T09:55:00.000+08:00

okays.
i need to remind myself this for rockmaster.
don't aim, just go and have fun. (:

2009-06-08T11:04:00.000+08:00

w e a k.

2009-06-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

Dear slopers,

please be my BFF.

Yours truly,
ceekayaxe.

2009-06-04T15:58:00.003+08:00

it has become a daily routine.
all of a sudden, it's so quiet.
it's weird.

imaginary friend. perhaps?

2009-05-31T00:31:00.008+08:00

Done with the Adidas Sundown Women 10k.
May be a short distance to some, but it's the longest distance i ever ran.
next 10k will be on 16th August (:
Safra Bay Run.

2009-05-30T11:34:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE DEAREST TPN! :D :D :D

The coldest refrigerator ever!

I hope she's no longer angry with me and ABBY for PS-ing her.

It's all for a good cause.

Signs of TPN angry can be seen from her facebook status and msn personal msg. :D

Not only these, we got information from her bf and nudger yi xiang about her ranting.

Both Abby and i were feeling guilty, but we know everything is going to be fine.

We hope!

By the time she see this post, it's going to be tml.

hehs. Hope you did enjoy yourself!

and and.. i'm not forgetting my accomplice (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU AS WELL <3

Our dearest belinda ain't joining us for Adidas Sundown Women 10k later. ):

Take care and come back soon!

2009-05-28T17:27:00.001+08:00

T r a n s g e n d e r e d C h i l d

http://www.transkidspurplerainbow.com/pdf/nurtuting.pdf

2009-05-26T15:00:00.002+08:00

Work contract extended till 3rd of July instead of 5th of June. There's definitely pros and cons do this, but i don't mind staying and help up for one more month cause i like the people and working environment here. Through this 3 months, i have learnt quite alot and gain valuable knowledge. With the extension of the contract, i'm seeing and helping out through the "7 babies"that the designers are working on- there's kind of a satisfaction. :D I think i'm quite lucky to get this job and have a manager that's so flexible and willing to give me 3 day leave before my test in mid june and let me take off as and when i need it. (probably it's because i'm only a temp staff?) So with all the pros, i don't see a reason why i should reject the offer to stay. (:

next up! CKX is in need of a wake up call. seriously, i don't have the motivation to start those mugging. test is in 2.5 weeks time and i'm still slacking and climbing?someone please give me a PUSH!i'm totally not prepared for everything-climbing competitions and tests. i think i should take up courses on time management!

studies and works aside.

OH YA!

anyone interested to go camp 5 with tpn and i from 3rd July to 5th July? (: (:

2009-05-20T17:22:00.003+08:00

19th May 2009.
another chapter of my life has ended.
3 years just went by.

and it's time to bid goodbye!
byebye TP!

i'm moving on to the next chapter. (:

2009-05-17T08:54:00.000+08:00

everything is turning bad.
what happened actually?

2009-05-12T15:06:00.001+08:00

pumpfest is on this weekend. i'm so not egg-cited at all.
my fingers, body and mental are all feeling weak.
i think i'm going to screw up pumpfest. ):

2009-05-10T22:25:00.002+08:00

Been able to push myself beyond the limit is the greatest satisfaction. :D :D :D
i wish there's more than 24 hour in a day so that i can run more, swim more and climb more.

2009-05-07T12:47:00.002+08:00

the start of bridging mathematics was kind of a killer for me.i think i have returned most of the stuff learnt in secondary school back to teachers and tutors.
Differentiation, functions, logarithm... and definitely, more to come!

i'm glad i have decided to study full time now. Through this one week of alt sch and climbing day, i'm totally drained out. i doubt i can take it if i work full time and study part time.
I just hope i can get free lance job so that i will at least have some income.
To be honest, i chose to study full time is also due to climbing. i want to enjoy another 3 more years of climbing before i commit into the working world.

good news!
pay is in!
retail therapy soon! (:

2009-05-04T01:38:00.001+08:00

i'm super duper indecisive.
can't stand myself.

2009-04-30T16:55:00.001+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2009-04-27T12:05:00.002+08:00

wake up call.

someone told me sth which i think he was right.
he affirmed the views that i have about myself.
i don't seems to be open,as in i don't really talk much.

at times, i do feel like i'm trapped in a room with 4 corners.
seriously,i don't know how to communicate.
i wish to learn to open up, but i have no idea how to.

save ckx.

2009-04-25T00:24:00.003+08:00

friday the 13th-ed with tjk and we managed to scare ourselves successfully.
sadist.
anyway, was craving for frolickkk today thus headed down to frolick @ tamp 1.
unfortunately, frolick experienced short circuit and their shop was in darkness and they are not in operation.
damns.

after the movie, tjk was complaining to me about NS enlistment.
afraid that he would be enlisted in june.
and now, he's a happy nut cause he's enlisting on 8th of oct!
sdd.
can't wait to see him botak and tanned.
*evil grins*

i so want to climb on sunday.
but my brain is telling me not to.
runnnn away.

2009-04-23T17:34:00.001+08:00

Laughter is...
fat-free,
salt-free,
tax-free,
environmentally friendly
and constantly renewable
(: (: (:

2009-04-22T19:29:00.003+08:00

i'm kind of looking forward to the day i will be starting my bridging course for mathematics on 5th of May.Seriously, i'm starting to miss school life. Knowing that the new academic year has started for TP student, i wish i can get back to school all over again. Speaking of which, i haven't been going to TP for 3 weeks i guess, not even for climbing.It's more convenient to go to Asia and climb after work as it's just a 15 minutes ride away if there's no traffic jam.(:

Went to SAA @ Raffles Place to register for my course on monday and i experienced the working adult crowds over there. Squeezing through the 102239043043294 peoples to get to SAA and me, going in the opposite direction from them. Most were heading towards the MRT station while i'm getting out of that place. More of such days in times to come.

Oh! I received a call from MFA today regarding the finance assisstant position i applied one month ago. They told me that the position was already taken up and they are offering me the position of foreign affair administrative specialist. However, due to studies commitment, i have to reject it as this job requires alot of OT.

Now, i just have to wait till next week and shall see whether i will get the admin/accounting exec position. Else, i will have to depend on the RSH HR manager. The current design manager i'm under was very nice and offer to speak to the HR manager and asked her to look out for available position for me after my contract ends. (:
Though the current temp job is kind of boring and not very related to what i studied, but i do enjoy working with the design studio people. (:
It's definitely much more enjoyable working in RSH as compared to the internship company.

okays.
time to count down to many stuff.
3 weeks to pumpfest
5 weeks to adidas sundown
7 weeks to rockmaster and mathematics bridging exam
13 weeks to economics bridging exam.

2009-04-18T21:22:00.004+08:00

i'm so in love with my ADIZERO bostonnn :D :D :D
shopping with tjk was damn good today.

seriously, i'm greatful to have sucha nice friend. :D
he's one..
-who never fail to make me smile
-whom i never thought that we will become bff 2 years ago.
-whom i never thought that i can click along with.
-who talk to me on msn during study week and complaining to each other about those exams.
-who do past year exam papers with me and check ans tog.
-who always look happy (except a certain period)
-who told me honestly that i'm a bad counsellor (which i agree)
-who help me in my school work.
(:

thanks tjk! (:
and okays. enough of him.

i just realised that there's so many things that i want to buy.
oh goshhhh.

but still, i will know the limit and not splurge.

ckx shall go run again tmllll. (:

2009-04-17T10:36:00.001+08:00

everything seems to have become more beautiful today (:

2009-04-17T00:17:00.003+08:00

yesss!
i ain't dreaming.
the heavy load is off my shoulder! :D

however, during this period of time is kind of like a struggling period
thinking about how i can solve my studies fee.
finally, miracle happened! :D

i have definitely learnt to be more independent during this period,
and thus i will stick to what i have initially decided.
I shall stick to my decision of working full time and studying part time.
till i feel that i'm unable to cope, then i will find a part time job instead. (:
somehow, after yesterday interview,
i felt that working experience is indeed very important. (:

kaixuan is a happy nut :D

2009-04-14T12:16:00.002+08:00

oh my goose.

tml is the interview + "chat"

somehow, i hope i can get the job.

cos it's not really consider office job and its at some where i have interest in.

but it seems like its going to be difficult to get it?

ahhhhhh!

butterflies in the stomach.

2009-04-13T17:21:00.001+08:00

hmmm.. i'm contemplating whether i should attend graduation ceremony. ):
it clashes with my bridging course at 7pm.
damns.

2009-04-11T18:58:00.002+08:00

finally caught confession of shopaholic.
the show really reminds me of no one else except TAN PEI NING! :D
she definitely need that kind of counselling.
hehes.

slack and chilled at ECP with friend.
nice talking to the friend.
good in advising i guess.

todayyy.
ckx ran and climbed.
suppose to swim after climbing, but too ex to go CSC pool.
and after 4 months, finally i donated blood(:
saved a life. :D

oh. lastly,
i seriously need to get a new running shooeeeeeee.
mine is already dyinggg.
ADIZEROOOOOOOOOOOOOO :)
yellow or red.
hmmmm. (:

2009-04-09T11:55:00.005+08:00

work has been rather boring today.

i'm seriously rotting over right here.

easy money, boring job.

thus it sets me thinking...

why does it always have an ending.

Is it me or the other party?

time and again i convince myself that i won't be that unlucky.

but still, i'm proven that i am.

haha.

Iit seems like i'm really not suitable for that.

seriously, i guess i'm jus predestined to look and envy.

i'm not upset over that.

but it just set me wondering and questioning myself why.

it's more of me feeling funny about this rather than sad.

whatever.

i lost sth, but i gain a friend that i can talk to.

SIDE TRACK...

damn.
i paid for my PT degree.
but somehow, there's still worries about the future.

there are people telling me that psb is not recognized.
there are people telling me that it's quite recognized.
i have no idea at all.
but, in the end, the certificate that i'm going to be get will be awarded by UOL.
so does it really matter whether PSB is recognize?

i hope i chose the right path.

bridging economics and mathematics course starts in may
exam will be in july.
i hope i can pass so that i only have to study 2 years for that degree.
right now,
i shall enjoy the time i have for climbing.

2009-04-05T00:18:00.005+08:00

on a saturday,
with tpn,
we bouldered,walled and enduranced.
we swam and chill under the big fat hot sun.
and now, i'm left with a slightly red face.

off we went to east point to get my lousy phone fixed again.
yes.
AGAIN.
the 3rd time i'm visting the service centre.
suck.

homed and off to chomp chomp to meet peining, abby and yi xiang.
ate like no body's business.
made new friend.
hahas.
intro them to choco tau huay. (:

i think it's my new addiction.

on a sunday.
i'm rotting, rotting and still rotting.
i wanted to swim.
but the sun's not out.
i wanted to climb.
but i guess asia going to be super crowded on a sunday.

so i decided to laze around.
will get myself out the house later to photocopy my certificates n ic.
i hope nothing goes wrong for the loan for the studies.

oh ya. UNBORN. anyone? (:

2009-04-04T00:44:00.004+08:00

hope i'm right.

2009-04-03T00:44:00.003+08:00

April fool's over.
but i was fooled.
by two of my dearest members of GIRLIES!

it was like this...

after showering and climbing with TPN:

*TPN came out of the toilet and was on phone, while i was walking infront and about to walk out of CSC*

TPN: eh. my friend coming to pick me up.
CKX: okays. then i go first.
*TPN sulk*
TPN: wait with me ah, my friend will send you home. but he will be 20 minutes late.
CKX: don't want la. i take bus myself.
TPN: my friend also stays at sengkang. if you take bus, you will probably take longer.

*CKX thinks it's quite true so waited for TPN's friend to arrive. We went to high wall area and look at the routes*

*TPN's phone rang*

TPN: okay. my friend is at swimming complex there. let's go

*walk over to swimming complex area and saw this orange car. board the car*

CKX open the door, board the car.
TPN's friend never smile at me or say hi to me.
CKX thinking that he's unfriendly. Since he's going to send me home, i shall be polite and say hi.

CKX: Hi!
TPN's friend just keep staring at me as though i'm some weirdo.

After 10-20s later,

then CKX realised TPN's so called friend is NANNY FADLY!

yes. how dumb can i be.
both of them burst out into laughter. -.-

though i was the dumb one of the day, however, the meet up was a nice one since i have not seen nanny for months.
he's going brunei next week.
gonna miss him man.

2009-04-01T22:36:00.002+08:00

it was a HAPPY april fool day.(:

but.. i'm thinking about my future again.

seriously, i hate growing up.
with all the decisions that i have to learn to make.
been a indecisive person, i'm pretty stuck.
dilemma.

1) Do my part time degree this year and find a full time job
what if i can't cope.
what if i can't find a average pay job.
what if i can't repay those loans.
then i will be full of debt.
oh gosh.

2) Work for 1 year first, then do a part time degree next year. (Continue to work while doing the part time degree next year)
what if i'm not into studying anymore after one year?

but i seriously don't want to stop studying now.
i just wish to continue and pursue that degree.

but no matter which choice i make, i'm going to be deprived from climbing and through out the 3 years when i'm paying for the course fee, i must scrimp and save like mad. oh great.

how now brown cow.

2009-03-25T22:46:00.002+08:00

woooosh.
i can't see how bad was it.
i took a mirror and try to take a look.
it appears small to me.
friends told me it was deep.
mum said that its till somewhere near the ear lobe?
okays. i have no idea.
all i know about the wound is, its having a burning sensation.

i'm uber unlucky i guess.
from last week,
monday- blister
sat-scratches
sunday- uber scary fall + existing blister
monday- time breakkkkkkk.
wed- cut. ):

suck.

2009-03-23T11:17:00.002+08:00

Boulderactive is down and congrats to TPSC winners.
TPSC team got 2nd for the team event and definitely everyone play a part in achieving this.
Indiv intermediate- Though i got into final but again, not fated to get top 3.
Suemay, Puay Hoon and I decided to shift to open and stop getting stuck in intermediate.
but haroz told me to stay and achieve sth first. i'm kind of in a dilemma on which category to join for pumpfest.

i was shock to the max during my final first route. the fall was ultimate man.
landed on my back and now there's a huge blue black. damns.
nonetheless, i enjoyed myself for this competition.
thanks team NUS for organizing this competition . (:

next up, PUMPFEST. 15-17 May 2009.

2009-03-20T23:21:00.003+08:00

Nervous shock may kill.
FATTEST PANDA.
thanks. (:

Followed by this surprise belated bday present from bestie.
thanks.
this is more unexpected than the panda.
meet up soon girl (:

2009-03-19T15:06:00.002+08:00

i was looking through the past entry that i blogged and i was quite amazed by how girlies was formed.
from stranger to team mates to climbing khakis to GIRLIES.
the down side that we went through and what bond us together now.
from the six of us climbing together almost every day to now.
everyone's busy with their works, studies and personal stuff.
i guess i'm reminiscing those days in the climbing gym @ TP,
with all the laughter and joy.

2009-03-18T13:37:00.002+08:00

oh gosh.boulderactive is just in 2 days time.
team event is on friday followed by indiv event on saturday.
just got a huge blister on monday. damns. it has been ages since i last got a blister.
thus i don't even remember where is my finger tape.

work has been so boring till i have got the time to blog.
i think i just committed some mistake but it was yet to be known till i get a email from the in charge. ):
whatever it is, i still have to face it and get everything right.

anyway, it was kjm's birthday yesterday.
happy birthday ugliest guy. <3

2009-03-12T17:47:00.005+08:00

Results are out and i finally graduated from TP (:
The results wasn't as bad as i thought its going to be, at least the GPA did not decrease.
But, no matter what, its definitely impossible to get into a local uni.
okay. i decided to drop the idea of applying for UOL.
there's no way i can afford it.
guess i just have to work 1st. ):

Anyway, i'm back to a 9am to 6pm internship lifestyle.
Started working at RSH limited last week.
Though it's back to the SIP working hours,
but at least i enjoyed myself more as compared to those SIP days.
The managers and staff are nice and friendly at least! (:
Though i'm just working as a Temporary Secretary in the design studio, but i did learn quite alot from the people here.
guess after the contract period, i will look for a perm job. ):

That's all.

2009-03-01T23:38:00.005+08:00

THURS: BOTANIC GARDEN + HENDERSON WAVE.
(: though it rained heavily, and kind of ruin our picnic session.
but we still have fun.
i only have limited pic for this cos i have not get hold of the rest!

FRIDAY: CELEBRATION OF LEARNING + 3B09 BBQ

weisheng's so called TWIN TOWER -.-
i felt inferior standing btw them.

part of banking and finance peepos.

3B09

my 10 years friend. :D JERENE

BFF! :D

SUNDAY: SENTOSA +UNDERWATER WORLD

i give some sdd a nervous shock 2day.
it was fun. :D
got to know kjm's throw team mates and arun better. (:
no regrets going! (:

i'm a happy girl 2day.

ONE. :D

2009-02-25T23:22:00.002+08:00

it's over! (:
happy girl.
but time to worry about my future.
bleak.

ok. i shall just enjoy for this few weeks first.
climbed right after exam.
and i think i'm having a fetish for wall.
i have no idea why.

went out with kristin, lizhu and clarissa yst.
(:
walked alot.
and i cut my hair yst!
finally have the courage to.
heh (:
feels good with short hair.

2day.
run, swam, job interview and out with the boy.
hope i can get thru for tt jobbb. (:

can't wait for tml.
picnic at botanic garden with kris, li zhu and clar.
yays! (:

2009-02-19T18:49:00.002+08:00

2 papers
23 feb.
freedom! (:
end of three years in TP.
how time flies.

hope no supp paper for the last semester.
esp legal aspects of business.
boo hoos.
i'm just studying business law and it's already killing me.
i wonder how does law student study law?
i'm amaze!

i need a holidayyyyy.

2009-02-13T19:03:00.003+08:00

Pre valentine day celebration with the girls.
sarah wasn't able to join us ):

seriously,
these girls coloured my life with all the joy and laughter that each and everyone brought to me.
the bad sides are over, let's hope this girlies-ship will stay till we are old. <3

happy valentines' day in advance to GIRLIES.
happy valentines' day in advance to all the FRIENDS.
and
happy valentines' day in advance to YOU :D :D :D.
thank yous ALL for the love showered.! (:

2009-02-08T01:41:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling poorer today.
but i guess it's all worth it.
currently feeling a sense of satisfaction.
yays.! :D

2009-01-31T11:59:00.001+08:00

i have already let go of everything in the past (:

thank yous!

two more weeks before the end of test and projects.
9th FEBBBBBBB.

2009-01-28T10:59:00.002+08:00

23rd January (:

24th January and 25th January :D

the flight of stairs to some "chalk restaurant" at mount sophia road.

(: (: (:

26th January
The cute cousin :D

27th January
GIRLIES (:

2009-01-25T16:46:00.007+08:00

hellos! :D
oh my goose.
saw some hot stuff :D
time to SAVE UP for one of the new BABY!

DEMON! :D :D

Trickster

Jester

con-tact

con-flict

credit: madrockclimbing.com (:

2009-01-19T00:33:00.002+08:00

yays (:
the horrible tests are over for last week.
i'm going to do very badly for both the test.
practically bull shitting my way thru.
ah. what ever.
forget it.
as expected

2 more coming up!
29th - MA class test
2nd Feb- IB end sem test.

for this week, i'm just going to concentrate on all those project submissions!
and with all the test and proj submission date and main exam queueing up,
it also means that i'm graduating soon!
woo.
1 more month plus n i'm SCHOOL-LESS!

oh wells.
thought alot recently about the past
i'm moving on!
i think i had enough of ignorance.
maybe we are just meant to be friend (:
i guess now, i'm a happier girl because i realised that there's better reasons for me to smile than to frown!

i'm looking forward to the weekendsssss.
friday: 4e2 dearest coming my house for steamboat (:
sat: should be climbing and follow by going out.
sunday: new year's eveeee
monday: CNY visting with FAMILY
tuesday: CNY visiting with GIRLIES

oh, not to forget, i just chopped my fringe today.
hellos bangs.

and for now,
byebye loves.

2009-01-16T11:43:00.001+08:00

i'm starting to feel that 2009 is going to be a horrible year ahead.
with those never ending school work crashing down,
and yet,
i'm still unprepared.

2009-01-14T21:53:00.002+08:00

when i'm starting to think about it lesser,
when i least expected to see...

and ta dah!
it appeared.

the feeling is just beyond description.

i seriously have no idea how i'm going to pass the upcoming test
worst semester ever.

2009-01-11T22:05:00.001+08:00

all of a sudden,
i'm just feeling down.
the mood seem to have sat on a slide and went all the way down.
at the rock bottom.

so not looking forward to anything.
schools, new year, graduation and many many more.

2009-01-10T02:02:00.002+08:00

i was super duper ultimately random 2day
studied.
have the sudden urge to go swimming.
went to buy swimming costume n goggles,
and off i went to swim!
2 and the half year of not swimming.
i felt super good when i got into the pool.
smell the chlorine! =\
after swim, off i went to school to climb! :D

anyway, watch this!
very touching. ): ): ):

Read this: http://www.teamhoyt.com/history.shtml
Watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJMbk9dtpdY&feature=related

2009-01-06T22:38:00.003+08:00

when i'm still feeling pretty lost in school work,

i'm being flooded with mid sem test, online journals, project and moreeee.

just done with 2 papers!

2 more on next friday and saturday.

it simply suck to be holding pen on one hand and tissue on another hand,

sneezing non stop in the LT.

the amount of tissue that i used can kill like 10 trees?

now, i have a nose red like rudolf,

dry like an empty well

and i think it's gonna peel like a banana.

oh great.

next week: 2 mid sem test and a forum

next next week: one project submission and one journal submission

next next next week: one journal submission and another class test

next next next next week(start of feb): one end sem test, 2 proj submission, one presentation

this will never end till main exam is over.

damn.

back to some online lecture!.

): ): ):

2009-01-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

damn.

where's my motivation for studying?

i'm so not into it right now!

): ): ):

2009-01-01T03:17:00.004+08:00

hello 2009!

byebye 2008! :D

to conclude, definitely, 2008 was better than 2007.

but there's also negative stuff.

but who doesn't face problem in the process of growing up?

it's january!

soon i will say hi to TWO. omgoose

feel old.

but it falls on new year's eve.

n definitely i have to stay home for reunion dinner.

it suck to spend birthday at home!

new year resolution of the year: SPEND LESS.

but but but..

there's tonne of things to that i need to buy!

rock shoe, sports shoe (ADIZERO!), new watch and errr.. forgotten..

okays. now it's time to sleep and start studying for my upcoming mid sem test on mon n tue!

good nights world

it's way beyond my means to save it.
byebye love.

2008-12-28T01:06:00.003+08:00

BBQ @ Jenny's house.

BBQ @ Sarah's house with the ultimate love. :D

CHRISTMAS LOOT FROM GIRLIES :D

THANKS.

2008-12-25T19:48:00.001+08:00

i'm missing out on BUTTERFACTORY 2nights.

boo.

blame it on my illness.

suck to be sick on xmas.

merry xmas all

sorry sarahrahrah. ):

2008-12-21T11:22:00.001+08:00

i'm voiceless ): ): ):

2008-12-19T00:02:00.002+08:00

what's the point of making xmas wish when it never comes true.

it's just like santa clause doesn't exist,and,

white xmas doesn't happens in singapore.

2008-12-18T00:22:00.005+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
it's being long since i last suffered from insomnia.
here i m, experiencing it agains.
it's freaking 3am now!
and i have to wake up at 8am for proj meeting tml! ):

anw.
my friend asked me to try this.
and most of it are quite true. hahas.

http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

Name: kai xuan
Date: 12/17/2008
Colorgenics Number: 21640735

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

You are a very sensitive person and you try hard (perhaps a little too hard) to make favourable impressions and to be recognised by your peers. But you have that inherent need to feel appreciated and admired and you are easily hurt if all of your endeavours go by unappreciated or not acknowledged. Stop trying so hard.

You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

The stress and tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to your inability to achieve security and appreciation from those closest to you. This is resulting in considerable pressures. You find the situation as it stands most frustrating. You are the sort of person that would like to experience all and everything very intensely but unfortunately you are not receiving the warmth and understanding that you feel you are entitled to. Matters are not going too well. You seek a sympathetic ear but it is not forthcoming. This situation is extremely nerve-racking - and what is more humiliating is that no-one seems to care and you are powerless to do anything about it.

You are being very dogmatic, insisting that there is to be absolutely no equivocation whatsoever about your achievements and accomplishments.

it left with the wind.

byebye.

2008-12-15T23:20:00.001+08:00

did i do sth wrong?

2008-12-13T19:48:00.004+08:00

woots.

went for my cousin's(ziyan) wedding @ raffles hotel 2day.

it's kind of fairytale wedding type. :D

pictures will be up when i get it.

ANYWAYS,

i'm saying BYEBYE to samsung F480 and hellos to sony ericsson C905.

regretted buying F480 cos it always hang. ):

so decided to sell it awy b4 it's value drop (in fact, it's dropping like mad.)

i still prefer SE!

let's hope C905 doesn't give me much prob.

and it's as nice as my SE k800i. :D

once again, twinnie phone with TPN's.

hahas.

and and and.

irwan is going to become my new mentor in climbing.

hahas.

hope i can get better with his help. (:

I WANT TO WATCH BOLT! ):

that's all! :D

2008-12-07T18:16:00.014+08:00

CLIMBERS @ sentosa, vivo city and powerhouse. (:

too lazy to talk abt it.

2008-12-01T16:38:00.002+08:00

Yaber dee Dubble dee Doooooo :D

It feels great cos no more formal wear on a week day, no more waking up early at 6.30 am, no more ironing of clothes on sunday nights.

WOOS.

it spells happiness. (:

no school today.

but tan jui kern smsed me early in the morning to ask me whether there's really no sch.
cos his friend told him there is.

zzz.

okays.

i feel most useless nw.

cos everyone is busying with their major project, sip or term test.

except ckx. =\

i think i should start brushing up on my sip report.

((:

and now...

off to climb.

byebye. (:

2008-11-29T08:26:00.002+08:00

YAYS!

28 November marks the end of SIP.

It was a mixed feeling,

HAPPY cause i don't have to face the STEPMOTHER,

who refused to give me a pass with commendation because she think that 12 weeks is too short for her to give me 1.

WTH.

and one MC costing 1 mark. -.-

After appraising me, she gave me an ugly "fortune cat" massage thing from minitoon,
which i gave to ashley (abby's dog). =X

okays.

I'm feeling SAD as my numbre of hi-bye friends would increase.

all the people in the photos below are going to become hi bye friends.

different course,class,elective,time table and thus we would hardly meet.

but still, i wish to thank them for making the IBM journey a memorable one. (:

Tuesday would be back to school!

:D :D :D

2008-11-26T16:27:00.002+08:00

TWO more days. :D

this week was growing fat days i think.
usually i would eat lesser during lunch time.
but for this week, i'm lunching like everyday with the other IBMers.
and it's not the usual food court, but better food for ourself this week.
i'm so gonna miss SOME of them or should i say ALMOST ALL except one/two.
hahas.
but guess, we would become hi-bye friends when school start since most of us are from different class or even course.

having farewell lunch @ T3 Swensens with my supervisor and some of the finance dept ppl.
another fattening day.
but lucky, there would be PT tml to make me feel less guilty.
hur.

and and and.
i wonder how my sup will grade me for the appraisal form.
i guess it's hard to get a pass with commendation from her.
boo hoo.

tt's all.
(:

2008-11-22T12:33:00.003+08:00

Met up with the sec sch dearest yst (:

Supposely, the birthday boy, weng hao couldn't make it cos he's celebrating with his TP friend and abandon friends whom he know for 5-6 years!

but coincidently, we decided to change our dining place from vivo to fish & co glasshouse.

and we happen to see weng hao there! :D

kind of embarassed him by making dedication to request him to come down from level 2 to level 1 as his friends whom had known him for six years are waiting for him.

but some how, i think it fail. heh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WENG HAO! (:

To the friend who always say i'm a emo girl, please be strong and don't think so much.
PLEASE smile and be back to yourself.

2008-11-21T10:43:00.002+08:00

LOOK BACK.

Just five more day to end of SIP,

five more month to graduation.

and this make me realized how fast the three years in TP passed!

I think the best part was to find the passion in climbing and getting to know many beloved people (:

Many friends have been telling me that i have got no life, cos it's always going for climbing after school/SIP.
But i guess, it's just hard for them to understand.

At least, i did go out and have fun too! (:

I seriously miss those days in TPSC with those current TPSC alumni and current senior batch. That was like when I’m just in year one!

With me and ber just going into TPSC,

and from don’t really like airbee and teepeeant,

to loving them now (:

In year one, we got Noor to train us and it's really nice to have a captain like him.

he never gives up on us and always motivates us.
okays, maybe it's more for me,
but definitely, he did train ber when we first started.

the training maybe harsh, but, the fun's always there.

i think all TPSC ppl who have him as a captain would agree that he's the best captain ever.

I guess that's bcos he's able to balance the fun and training.

Through the three years, i think it's a tough journey,
with many changes occurring.

And perhaps, that's call growing up. (:

With those tough journey, there smooth ones too.

cos girlies are found and they made up part of the journey.

With all the joy and sadness we went through together,
i guess it's all etched in our heart.

both the good and bad.

thinking that one problem was solved, and everything's gonna be smooth.

but it seems like another problem arises and it seem to be worst.

have no idea how to describe.

shall just let it be?

To ALL, thanks for adding colours to my life. (:

2008-11-20T16:48:00.000+08:00

TEEPEEANT was very nice today to come to expo to lunch with me :D
and we agree to start our deal tml. =\
hahas.

p.s.decided to delete the previous post abt some annoying ppl cos it only STAIN my blog.

2008-11-16T23:13:00.002+08:00

MADAGASCAR-ed

FROLICK-ed (:

these made my day.

:D :D :D

and i happened to find this baby photo in "my received file" folder.

At 1st i was thinking who was it,

and now i knew it.

the person who sees this gonna kill me for posting it up.

hur. =\

2008-11-15T22:39:00.005+08:00

I just realised that there's some EXPIRED photo that i have yet to post up. :)

HALLOWEEN night.
Pasta de Waraku with the girls followed by Eski-ed with the guys.

GIRLIES.

Yesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end, and somewhere in the middle we became the best of friends (:

Okays. TODAY!

SINFUL!

spent money again.

so hard to resist, so hard to stop

oh gosh!

happy pill.

2008-11-14T18:13:00.003+08:00

it feels super good to be home early.
was supposed to go climb after the dept bbq.
but i kind of injured my finger on wed during climbing.
so i shall be good and let my fingers rest till monday. (:

i think there's no regrets in going for the bbq. (:
get to talk to some fresh grads about the uni path that they choose.
oh nos.
it's time i should start doing research on the uni n courses.

wooden cow.
four.

2008-11-13T17:05:00.000+08:00

i can't wait
i can't wait
i can't wait!

11 more days!
or should i say it's TEN!
tml is only till 12pm and after that is off for some finance dept bbq at freaking 2.30pm.
uber dumb.
i think i would be the one getting BBQ-ed!

2008-11-09T22:31:00.002+08:00

THREE more weeks to the end of freaking SIP. ):
i would rather go back to school and mug.
boo hoo.

let the time pass asap man!
there's just too much politics.
eeks.
what people say and do are totally different.
what nonsense.
bullshyt.

one two three four five six seven eight nine ten eleven twelve thirteen fourteen fifteen sixteen seventeen eighteen nineteen twenty twenty-one TWENTY-TWO more days before i can go back to school!

SIP is just around 2.5 month.
but, it allows me to see the other side of the world.
how scary can it be.

MW

2008-11-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

Reminiscing is just gonna be a waste of time.
cos things changed drastically.
chances only come by once.
so cherish it. :)

2008-11-05T23:46:00.003+08:00

AUTHENTIC HAVAIANAS FOR SALE @ WWW.GREENMONSTERSONROCKS.BLOGSPOT.COM :D

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Flash Hit $25.00
Flash Style Etnics $28.00
Flash Style $28.00
Flash Urban Fresh $30.00
Floral $23.00
Honey $25.00
Leaves $23.00
Logo Top $25.00
Slim $29.00
Slim Butterfly $30.00
Slim Season'08 $29.00
Slim Season'09 $30.00
Sunny $24.00
Top $20.00
Top Metallic $23.00
Trail $30.00

Buy 2 Pairs and above for those highlighted in Red and get a $1 discount per pair. (:

SHOW THE MONSTERS SOME LOVE <3

2008-11-03T15:45:00.001+08:00

i officially declare that it's the end of the chapter. (:
no looking back.

2008-11-01T00:23:00.003+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO ALL EXCEPT myself.

1)the change was too drastic to be accepted.
you were right.
problem existed right from the start.
what's the point of trying to solve it when it's already over.
it's just my silly and one sided thoughts.
awkwardness still exists.

2)War seems to be starting in my house. suck.
Standing in the middle and listening to both sides complaining to me.

just too PROBLEMATIC, so FCUK EVERYTHING.

2008-10-28T00:11:00.001+08:00

okays.
it's enough of everything nw.
i think i should stop deceiving myself (:
i shall learn to look forward.

2008-10-27T17:07:00.005+08:00

wees.
got more photos of us when we were at haikal's hse! =D
Presenting the birthday boy (:,
HAIKAL!
happy 21st bday in advance (:

okay there's more,
next is my woman, ber and her super annoying boyfriend.
he's so dumb that he put powder on his face! hahas
but no matter how annoying, irritating, act cute is he,
still he's super nice to ber la.
=DDD

abby and ber (:

uyanga and me.

uyanga.

random shot.

psst EVERYONE!

not forgetting THE LIME LIGHT STEALER!

ZUL!

look at how he try to be part of the pic!

hahas!

2008-10-27T00:43:00.003+08:00

i wonder, i wonder and i'm still wondering.

hahas.

i'm supposed to face it!

ohs nos.

2008-10-22T21:23:00.003+08:00

okays.
i'm not emoing.
n not gonna.
but just don't know what i'm thinking.

everything's fine now.
but one thing is,
i don't know whether i'm trying to maintain the friendship i used to have with you,
or trying to save everything that i lost.
hahas.
dilemma.
but whatever it is, i know i shouldn't put too much hope (:
if it's meant to be, it would be. (:

i read this in some other blog...
" So this is the lesson learnt; never lose sight of what is infront and most precious to you. All is said and done, you never knew what you had till it disappeared."

HAHAS.

and migraine is back to haunt me again.
boo hoo.
and and and..
my laptop charger died on me ):

p.s. i'm all by myself at work alr cos my mentor, zuleira left today. ):

that's all.

NIGHT SAFARI, i hope. (:

2008-10-21T09:08:00.002+08:00

deleted most of the emo post.
time to move on.
thanks for the honesty.
now i know it clearly.

i hope this shall be the last emo post.
i would be fine...
i hope.

now i know that everything is impossible,
i see no point in keeping moowood.

byebye.

2008-10-19T01:33:00.014+08:00

CLIMBAPRIX (:
the routes were not as bad i thought.
and it was interesting, especially with sp's uber cool wall.
shall let pictures do the talking.

chloe.

kai xuan.

Bee Siang.

Cheryl.

Kai Xuan and Bee Siang

Claudia

Uyanga.

the threesome. abby,ber and tpn

sarah jean toh.

chloe.

open men:haroz,lloyd,haopei,jiaming,clement,dixie

open women: uyanga,sarah,chloe,cheryl,bee siang, claudia kai xuan

ridhwan.

captain and freshie

belinda.

uyanga, chloe, kai xuan.

faiz and ridhwan climbing in the background.

junior and senior girls

SARAH, uyanga, chloe, kaixuan

claudia, bee siang, cheryl

kai xuan, sarah, chloe.

and the following pictures are sp's nicely painted wall.
cool shyt. (:

WE LIVE TO CLIMB (:

2008-10-07T11:20:00.002+08:00

i'm blogging at workplace.
this shows how bored i am.
omgoose la.
it's another rotting day after one hectic week i had last week.

everyday is about counting down to the next week end.
(:

11 oct: Internal Comp @ NUS
18 Oct: Climbaprix @ SP
19 Oct: Jalan Raya with TPSC
25 Oct: Jalan Raya with TPSC alumni and seniors ((:
1st and 2nd Nov: Climb On @ Pasir ris park

2008-10-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

slack (:
ibmer + reeds.

2008-10-01T11:17:00.003+08:00

i think i'm very anti social.
but i have no idea why.
that's me.
i can't help it either (: